Tuesday, September 30, 2014
She worked really hard on this song during the summer, and it's something that's close to her heart. So give it a listen and share widely! Get your first, second, and thousandth taste of it here.
Monday, September 29, 2014
Like how creepy is that?
Friday, September 26, 2014
Thursday, September 25, 2014
My mom is adorable. We passed each other as I was driving into our subdivision this evening, and when I pulled up to the house I turned around to find that she'd followed me back just so she could give me a hug and say hi. Then she went off to the grocery store as she had been originally. But then I walked into the house and saw that there was food already. I called Ma and asked her why she'd gone to the store in the first place (and why she was taking so long), and she replied, "Well, it just didn't look like enough to me."
Wednesday, September 24, 2014
I want to take this opportunity to express my gratitude toward anyone I have come across in this life who has ever shown me any form of kindness. I had a two-day falling out with my dad yesterday and today, and I'm feeling really drained. But what's helped me get through it is reflecting on all the people, relationships, and even small or brief moments that have demonstrated to me that there is love in this world, and that I don't deserve to be mistreated. So to all of you out there in the world, from complete strangers to close friends and family, who have ever shown me kindness in my life, even if it was just a "Hi", a hug, a smile, a nod, a few words, a prayer, or a handshake, thank you. Thank you so much. You are appreciated. Be Happy and God Bless.
Saturday, September 20, 2014
Friday, September 19, 2014
- Lunch stop in between leaving my internship and going to the shelter.
- Already had to park at one end of the street and walk farther than usual to get to work due to BluesFest preparations
- Then my smart behind decided to walk in the opposite direction toward the other and of the street, passing a nearby Mexican restaurant along the way because I thought this diner would be cheaper; I was mistaken
- Mom n Pop; only open until 2:30pm daily; two waitresses for the entire joint; you get what you order and they don't waste no time
- Unapologetically old school; outdated decor and furniture; tunes that I could live without (I just can't get with country music); BUT friendly service and plenty of Lansing/Spartan spirit
- Veggie omelet with cheddar + hashbrowns + big ole block of wheat toast with mixed berry jelly + big ole glass of water; all for $7-something; nothing fancy or special, but not bad at all
- Didn't think I was going to eat it all, but I guess I was more famished than I'd thought
- Best slice of toast I've had in my life! I don't know where they got that bread from or what's in it, but it was wonderful
- All in all it was alright; probably won't be coming back to this place though; I'll try the Mexican place next time
- Another cafe I hadn't been to yet; straight from the shelter trying to get some studying in before closing
- Hardly any customers here though, and zero students other than myself; the place is kinda tucked away and their goods are overpriced, so maybe that has something to do with it
- So much to choose from! And nice staff
- And the award for longest wifi password ever goes to.... this place!
- Chicken Gyro + baked chips + Superfruit smoothie; was decent but not decent enough to merit the $11-something I paid for it
- Clever sign warning parents to keep an eye on their kids
- Sweets so tempting! Well-made and delicious-looking desserts just staring back at me; I could faintly hear them calling my name BUT! I didn't give in
- Not exactly disappointed, but again another place that I probably won't come back to
Thursday, September 18, 2014
- There comes a point where children who come out of difficult situations have to take responsibility for their actions and acknowledge that they can make different decisions; you choose your actions
- Perhaps you're at a point in your life where you'd prefer to have minimal to no contact/relationship with your dad; perhaps you would prefer interacting with him as you would any other stranger you might come across on the street
- Cynicism and disinterest toward (romantic) relationships; maybe for you and your mom, being alone is just more comfortable?
- Anxiety about your future, feeling stuck or like you can't do anything
- You're the type of person who likes having a plan and school has set up a structure for you... so thinking about what comes after it just seems like a whole in the ground that you're going to walk into
- But, good thing about being done with school is that (ideally) you won't have so many things that you don't care about demanding your time and attention; can do what you really want to do
- A go-to phrase that you use when thinking yourself out of things: "It's not going to last, so why bother." But such is life! Nothing stays the same or lasts forever.
- The fact that singing keeps coming up in our conversations probably means you should start making it a priority, or at least actively have it play a larger role in your life
- Most people can't make a living with their music; if you start getting out there and being more active, are you strong enough at this point to handle someone knowledgeable of music/the industry assessing your voice and telling you, "You know, this just isn't for you"?
- (My thought) Am I strong enough to keep going for it anyway?
- ASSIGNMENT: Go to the Music Building and just walk around; see what's up and what postings might are up that might be of interest (groups, singing lessons, activities, etc.)
Wednesday, September 17, 2014
Silk Vanilla Soymilk is the business.
Great alternative for when I want "something sweet", which is often. Smells like I'm drinking cake, but comes without the "I shouldn't have consumed that" or "This is bad for me" -related guilt. Perhaps a dessert-less life is on the horizon?
I repeat, this stuff is. the. business.
That is all. Carry on!
Monday, September 15, 2014
- Need to get more sleep!
- Who knows where this internship could lead? Great to be in a positive, calm, reflective environment. And, you're already contributing!
- Insecure about how you're different from others
- Your friends are your friends for a reason; shouldn't constantly suspect them to be insincere
- You've got a double standard; you associate with people and become friends with them because you see good in them (not because of how they look), but you don't allow people the same credit for doing the same with you
- When what people say doesn't line up with the distorted view you have of yourself, you suspect them of lying to you and being dishonest; instead of accepting their kind words at face value and thinking, "Hm, maybe they know something about me that I don't."
- Radical acceptance to be who you are, how you are
- You stop yourself from doing things that make you happy because you hold your insecurities and what others might say as greater and higher than anything else
- Ms. Yvette's email; Need to exercise that muscle to not only think better of yourself and accept good things people say, but also to be able to remember/fall back on those positive words when you're feeling down, rather than finding refuge in your negative thoughts
- Practice, practice, practice!
- "Too serious"; it's probable that the problem isn't you, but your environment; you have personality traits that are valuable, but they're just not valued where you are right now
Saturday, September 13, 2014
Tuesday, September 9, 2014
[subject: Hello from Detroit!]
Hello Ms Senior! How’s it going? Hate I missed you Labor Day weekend. You know I have much to ask you about your adventures in Paris. I was reading your blog when you were there, so I know pretty much how it went. I could tell you didn’t like your job or your boss! But I was so proud to read that you had a great work ethic. Don’t let anyone tell you that you are too serious or work too hard. That’s a compliment if you ask me. So keep being serious and have integrity in everything you do. I know you got these excellent traits from your MOTHER!I was so worried when I read you were going to England to visit your friend. I emailed Miriam and she told me how you text her when you left, when you got there and when you came back! I told Miriam “ you raised Danielle right”! I’m so glad you were in constant contact with your Mom when you were travelling. That is a sign of maturity!I was also worried when you met that African guy. I met a few African guys when I was in Iraq. After they get to know you, they start asking for things. One had the audacity to ask me to “buy” him an Ipad. But after I thought about it, I said to myself, “it's no way Danielle will let anyone swindle her out of any money, not the way she hates to spend money! And I had to laugh!Hope this year will be all that you hope it will be. I know you are still contemplating what you want to do after school, but knowing you, you will find your way Danielle. You’ve got nerves of steel! I would have never done half the things you have accomplished in your “young” life. So be proud of all you have done! And “KEEP DOING” I’m expecting great things from you!Take care and God bless!Ms YvettePS Send me your address so I can drop a few dollars to you. I know you are probably sitting on a fortune! And I love that about you! Keep being frugal and don’t get any credit cards!
Still got an opinion on everything, still got that sense of humor! It's nice to know that you haven't changed. Thanks for thinking of me, Ms. Yvette!
And to anyone reading this, I highly recommend that you give a big hug or send a big "Thank you" to the folks in your life who encourage you whether you ask for it/believe it/remember it or not. Encouragement is hard to come by these days, so folks like these are golden!
- Been here a couple times for French convo tables last year (or was it two years ago?); but never came to study, ordered anything, or stayed a while to get a real feel for its atmosphere
- Came here straight from church; Sundays = sleep + study; just decided not to retreat to my dorm room this time and try a change of scenery
- Open setup, plenty of indoor and outdoor seating, warm-colors, plenty of natural light during the day, right across from campus... I see now why this place attracts so many people
- Would've tried their vanilla matcha latte but they were out of matcha (really?), among other things apparently
- Sea Mist Sencha (yay loose leaves!) + Vegan zucchini bread
- Spent an hour watching "Going My Home" for Japanese class
- Spent another two and a half hours watching Letters from Iwo Jima for another class; one of the longest films I've ever watched, but also one of the most nuanced and well-made war films I've ever watched
- Yay for "American" films spoken in Japanese! And yay for war films that don't bore me to tears and aren't simply about Americanssupposedlysbeingbetterthaneverybodyelse!
- Cute chalkboard sign behind the counter that read: "Welcome Back! We missed you. Coffee. Study. Sleep. Repeat"; sums up my life except for the coffee part
Friday, September 5, 2014
- Had plans this evening; came here to pass the time between my appointment with Sue and said plans
- Couches, comfy chairs, a fireplace, an indoor watefall; makes you feel like you're in someone's study or living room
- Veggie "panino" + carrots + steamer w/ skim milk and honey
- Was supposed to get a bunch of reading done, but kept getting distracted with Japanese music countdown videos; trying to get back into J-music and see what artists over there have been creating this year
- Only managed to get through one reading for one class
- Was about to leave but just as I'd finished packing up my stuff, a storm hit
- Waited for the storm to ebb before going back to campus; my evening plans fell through but that's cool because by then I didn't feel like venturing out again anyway
- There's lots of heavy stuff going on with my family and some of my friends, but I don't seem to be affected by it. Oddly enough I feel better than I have in a long time
- Being proactive (rather than reactive) and being more engaged about planning out my days and activities has been doing me well! One of many things that going to Paris was good for
Thursday, September 4, 2014
- Annual multicultural/welcome-back event; I've gone every year
- "Infinite Harmonies"; whoever came up with this theme deserves a hug and a high-five!
- Was finishing a French capstone project... didn't get there until the last hour
- Sun was setting, some student orgs were already packing up
- Performance stage on one end; pretty groovy band (Desmond Jones) playing in the grass on the other end
- Tons of people showed up! Yay for all the people I know who helped organize this event!
- Tried looking for friends who I knew would be there but only managed to find three
- Wasn't much going on so I left; 30-ish minutes counts as attending an event, right?
Tutti Frutti - East Lansing (4 September)
- Walked from Spartan Remix to a nearby meeting; was in near Ivy's on-campus apartment building so I gave her a ring
- Met up with Ivy and she gave me a tour of her apartment building, showed me her apartment, introduced me to her super cool roommates
- Wasabi Triscuits!
- Sweet-bitter whiffs of high quality maccha that Ivy brought from Uji last year; Ahh the Japan nostalgia!
- Ivy and Dia were heading out for frozen yogurt with Dia's boyfriend Pedro; they invited me to come along
- Rode in Pedro's car to Tutti Frutti, one of many places in EL that I still hadn't visited
- Kept it simple this time around: Green tea yogurt + blueberries + Heath bits
- Had just enough time to make our selections, enjoy our treats, chat it up, and snap a picture before the place closed
- They dropped me off and told me to visit again anytime; how great it is to have friends in the neighborhood!
Tuesday, September 2, 2014
All of my school friends and acquaintances that I've come across so far are in the same It's-senior-year-I'm-freaking-out-I-don't-know-what-to-do-with-my-life-gahh-the-pressure-I'm-not-ready-for-the-real-world club. Every single one of them. Just like me. A bunch of us ran into each other between classes today and the conversation that followed confirmed this for me. And while I wouldn't wish senior year uncertainty or anxiety on anyone (given my current position I now feel incredibly sorry to every person to whom I've ever asked the "What are you doing after you graduate?" question), it is comforting to know that pretty much all of us are in the same boat.
Above was the parting well wish of a school acquaintance of mine named Paul. And the way he said it just really struck me. What he said was simple, but the message I heard was much deeper than that. Like we all have our own Big Question, and only we can figure out what the unique answer to our own Big Question is. And not only that, but we will all find our answer(s) in our own time. Thanks Paul.