Saturday, February 7, 2015

"Worth Fighting For"

Yesterday I was having a pretty rough day, and subsequently was entertaining the thoughts of despair and self-loathing that often visit me on rough days. And then this song came on the radio. I've been playing this song over and over since last night, and I haven't yet been able to get through it without tearing up.

Whatever doesn't seem to be going your way right now, remember that you always have plenty of other reasons in life to rejoice, and to not throw it all away or give up on yourself. There is always something in life worth fighting for. You are worth fighting for. YOU are worth fighting for!

Be blessed this weekend. And give this song a listen if you're in doubt. 

Wednesday, February 4, 2015

Sessions with Sue 29

Maybe I spoke too soon? Because today's session felt slightly same ol' again. But I'm keeping my hopes up! Today we discussed how depressed I was Monday and Tuesday and how things turned around Tuesday night through a set of fortunate events, the job interview I have coming up on Friday, and my dad harrassing me (yes, still):

  • Having meaningful and lighthearted interactions with people often does make you feel better, even on those dark days when you'd rather retreat and hide, and even if it's awkward or uncomfortable at first
  • Your thoughts create your feelings, so consciously try to replace those negative thoughts when they come with ones that make you feel happy
    • Like instead of thinking about how dumb your French linguistics class makes you feel, think about how calm and fulfilled you feel when you walk dogs through the woods at the shelter

Tuesday, February 3, 2015

Going My Way

"I have got too many good things going on in my life to not be okay with myself just because one thing isn't going my way."

 -Esse, my friend.

Monday, February 2, 2015

Marley the Snowbunny

 


In the middle of our walk this past Saturday, Marley was not impressed.







 

Apparently, walking through snow pales in comparison to repeatedly stop-drop-and -rolling around in it for minutes at a time while your confused handler can do nothing but wait for you to finish.



 
Thank you, Mr. scraggly-looking pup/teddy bear/lion cub for being another dog-walking first for me: a dog who adores snow like none other.




 

Marley is still up for adoption! If you're looking for a beautiful young male who's goofy yet alert and can tough it out through winter snows, check out his profile HERE.



 **(UPDATE 2/3)** Marley found his forever home today! I hope your new family appreciates your quirks. Happy rolling!

Sessions with Sue 28

This past Friday went so much better than the last session, which was encouraging given the concerns I've been having! We mostly talked about the career fair/events that I went to, my meeting Shay and our subsequent open mic night deal (I got her to sing last Tuesday so next Tuesday I have to do it!), my weight woes, and of course, my dad harrassing me through text and voicemail:

  • Part of frustration you're having with your weight and your dad is that they're out of your control
    • doing what you've been told are all the right things, but weight's not coming off
    • been ignoring your dad for four months and haven't done anything to antagonize him, but he still won't leave you alone. 
  • For you, your dad's like the dark spot in your life; try to forget about it but it always resurfaces; it's like it's always on your back
  • that you feel this way indicates that it's unresolved (?); not doing anything or engaging with him at all is probably fine for now; but at some pint you'll have to figure out how you'll handle this thing for the long run

Sunday, February 1, 2015

First big snow storm of the year.

Something I learned this evening: Walking a mile and a half through a blizzard is a lot more enjoyable when you have a pajama-clad dude walking his dog ahead of you for distraction.

Be safe and warm tonight y'all, ok? While I continue drying off...

Big Eyes

I went to see this movie over three weeks ago and forgot to write about it. Not because it wasn't worth writing about, mind you; I just got caught up and it slipped my mind. On the contrary, given the overall unappealing cinematic options that the holiday season had to offer, I'm actually glad that I kicked off my 2015 filmgoing with this one.

Seen Saturday January 10th: Big Eyes

In the 1950s and 60s, Margaret Keane is at first elated when her second husband Walter Keane recognizes her talent and gets her paintings noticed, promoting and selling them under the name "KEANE". But as the big-eyed waifs cause a stir in the art world and became a hot commodity nationwide, Walter takes all the credit, locking Margaret in a room to continually produce paintings whilst getting no recognition. When she finally decides to leave the relationship and stand up for her work, she has to battle it out in court to prove to the world that she is the real artist. Based on a true story. Directed by Tim Burton.

"She created it. He sold it. And everyone bought it."


What I really like about this film: This is quite the peculiar story! I'd read an article in People that implied that Margaret didn't know what Walter was doing with her paintings, nor that her work was famous and the "hot thing" in art at the time. But in the film it makes clear that Margaret did know, but  wasn't originally aware of her husband's maniacal, money-hungry, and attention-starved intentions. For years she hadn't spoken up to claim her work because she didn't believe people would support a woman artist. She naively trusted in her husband's business acumen, and was blinded by mid-20th century dogma that told her to obey her husband and let him take care of everything. So the question of complicity made for some confusion on my part at first, but other than that this film's storyline is straightforward.

Another aspect I enjoyed about this film was its style. Of course, being a film about art, this film prioritizes the story in question and stylistic detail and accuracy (this includes color and tone, sets, wardrobe styling and even casting that reflects ethnic demographics). The events take place largely in the San Francisco art scene during the 50s and 60s, which was a particularly tumultuous yet remarkable time in our country's history, but there were no references to major historical events going on at the time. Why? Because the visual aesthetic and the story matter most. Usually I'd have a problem with historical context being missing in such a way, but it actually works well for the film because it shows you what era you're in rather than telling you about it.

Lastly, I have to give kudos to Amy Adams! Her performance was so vulnerable and compelling. She's one of the few actresses I care about, and though I'm not cognizant of all her work I notice that she often takes roles that pay homage to women who do remarkable things (à la Julie and Julia). Much respect to her.

What I don't like about this film: I can't pinpoint anything in particular. One thing I would've liked to know is what inspired Margaret Keane to make portraits of sad-looking, big-eyed children. What led her to take on that subject and how did her particular style develop? That was a question raised in the film, but it was played off by Margaret's  repeated assertion that art is personal. And so we never find out the "why" behind her pieces. But as an artist I can respect her not wanting to give it all away, so to speak. Some things are sacred and personal, so while I am left wondering, I can definitely accept not being privy to that information.

Would I recommend it?: Absolutely!