Talking with Yasmin 10

Notes from today's session. I did the compassionate statement assignment Yasmin gave me last time, but it was so hard for me to do! I've realized that when I have negative or judgmental thoughts about myself, in my mind that's the truth. That's just how it is. So trying to re-frame these statements or come up with positive rebuttals to them was greatly challenging and uncomfortable because I felt like I was going too easy on myself or denying the truth, like I was being naive or something. But I did it, and now I have a record to go back to and reassure myself if/when those thoughts resurface.

• Pole class frustrations; can't stand not being good at things especially when there are witnesses, disappointed in yourself, frustrated when you don't get the hang of things right away 
• Reading through my entries for the compassionate statements assignment 
• feeling a lot of unresolved disquietude and guilt; self-induced pressure to do get it together
• "difficult emotions" meditation
• getting comfortable in the uncomfortable 
• RAIN, recognize experiences instead of resisting them, and allow them to happen without attaching meaning or judgement