...is that the few times when you do express yourself honestly or bluntly, people patronize you and discount what you're saying by calling you "sassy" or "feisty". Like Oh, this is new and irregular. What's gotten into you all of a sudden? Sometimes they even tell you you're being mean or not making sense.
Perhaps it's partly on me because there is so much of a dissonance between what I actually think of people and how I treat them. Most of the time I try my best to be nice to people, and I keep things to myself. So when I reveal what I really think about something that happens or something that somebody does, it's off-putting to people because it's unexpected and seems to come out of nowhere. And maybe, because I spend so much time thinking about it and not actually saying it, it comes out unintentionally sharp or biting. Sorry, my apologies.
But just because I'm not always popping off at the mouth doesn't mean that I'm okay with everybody and everything that goes on. I have real opinions too. And sometimes I just don't want to be bothered with people or pretenses. Am I not supposed to express how I feel like anybody else does?