"Don't Agonize, Organize."

Thank you, Professor B. Coming from the prof of my most difficult, demanding, and overwhelming course I have this semester, that's really helpful. But that's so hard to do, especially when you're lost and confused.

I've never questioned why I came to college, nor contemplated dropping out and doing something else more than I have this semester, especially this week.

I've lost focus of everything. I don't know what I want, I don't know why I'm here, I don't know anything at all. I haven't given up on any of the new things I started this year, but I've lost the enthusiasm and "why not?" attitude that was propelling me forward. Now I'm just tired.

 I guess this is what a rut feels like. My short time on earth has taught me that these times come in cycles, which means that they will always come every now and then. You can't stop the cycle. The only thing you can do is shift it so that it becomes successively less devastating each time. Hence, my short time on earth has also taught me that when you get in a rut, it's time to pray and do something new.

It's time to pray and do something new.